One positive thing about all my surgeries as it puts a lot into perspective and gives MUCH time for reflection. I do not wish ill will on anyone but I do think that some people (including me) need something to slow them down and realize what they have, what they don't want, and what they are seeking in their life. Deep I know...for my normally "light" blog. I really hope all my friends have everything they want in life, can easily get rid of what they don't, and find what they are seeking. I am blessed with a great family and some really good friends. There are still some "things" to work through to figure out how and when to rid them/it from my life but we're working on it. My new mantra however..."if it doesn't make me happy, make me healthy, or enrich my family"...why do I keep it in my life?!
Simmer on that for a bit...I think its a great way to think about people and things in your life.
I'm feeling better, trying to stay positive, but have accepted the possible unfortunate outcome to all these surgeries I've been through over the last 20 months. For those that do not know, if this surgery is not successful, it will still be the last. There is nothing else that can be done. All options have been exhausted and frankly, I'm spiritually and physically wiped and done with the process. Trying to stay positive that a miracle is in the works and it sticks, but if not...God will not give me anything I cannot handle!